No wait - I am in bed , should be asleep. The middle of the night's my favorite time - favorite time to be up "righting" . That's the kind of writing I do to get right with myself again. To slip back into soulfulness and alignment. But sometimes, I know it's going to kill me the next day, I hate - having to get up in the morning, or any particular time - if I could have no boundaries ever - at least those that are defined by clocks... aaah my world would be a perfect place.
Abraham says - all I ever have to do is get into the vortex... been trying not to write about Abraham Hicks, and the law of attraction... but it's that randomly late time of night when the censors gone to sleep in my brain, but I'm still up.
And all I have to do to be in the vortex is feel good. Answer to everything. Period. I love that. I love it so much I want it to be true. All I have to do is feel good. So I don't have to - solve a single other problem. It's so radical...it's sooo radical that most people, myself included will reject it. In the too good to be true basket... thing is when I practice it - it feels great!! It's the only philosophy I've come up against that consistently feels good. It set's me free from everything. I don't have to get enough sleep YAY. I don't have to do the right thing. YAY. I don't have to be miss perfect model of the perfect response.. I just have to find a way to feel good. Or feel a little better. That's alignment.
It's so simple, so easy, and everyday I find a million ways of forgetting it. I blame, I worry , I put myself down... then I remember, all I have to do is feel good. I feel the anxiety creeping back, the problems looming larger...then I remember - just feel good. anxiety, fear.. then feel good. (Or just a little better if you can't get all the way to good). What feels good right now? What feels loving to self??? Beating myself about about past mistakes? - No - worrying about the future? - No - trying to work out stuff that is overwhelming me - NO - but letting go of all that feels great. This philosophy goes against everything I've been taught. (WORRY!! ACT!! FRET!! REGRET!!) But now - just - let...go!. Just love self unconditionally.
All I have to do right now is feel good. I don't have to work out how to deal with Niks other women if I go further in his direction, or how i'm going to pay the rent for the house I haven't even moved into yet.... Oh no - all I have to do is feel good lol. I don't have to solve anything right now except how to feel good - now. On that note - Good Night. I can't even apologise for how many people won't like this post, cause it feels good to ME, and right now that's all that counts. :-)
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